I read somewhere the difference between wait and await was hope; when you are awaiting something you wait with anticipation. When a beloved guest is coming to stay overnight you do not wait until they arrive, but prepare yourself for their arrival. You await their coming. I am not simply waiting for God to provide the pieces for my vocation, but I am excitedly preparing myself for their presence. 

Knowing God has a plan and His own timeline for the unfolding of His Will is both exciting and a difficult reality to accept. Waiting, even with hope, is not easy. My constant desire for the future parts of my life is unceasingly insistent the wait has been long enough, but prayer and discernment have led to an understanding of my timeline not aligning with God’s. I myself, though trying to grow in the virtue of patience, am not a patient person. So it is not with patience, but in patience that I am awaiting the unfolding of His Will.  It is hard not to feel frustrated when what I feel should happen is not what is supposed to happen. Often feeling like I need to grasp on to a patience outside of myself to get through the day, I feel surrounded by patience waiting for me to use it.

I have felt called to the role of marriage and family and await the presence of my future spouse and the family we will become. I do so as an imperfect and impatient person. For now, as I await God’s revelation of the family He is calling me for, I have been focusing on preparing myself for the incredible good which will come. In doing so I feel compelled to express myself through my words and share stories of my life and the people who are serving as inspirations to trust in the Lord and His timing.

With that, welcome to my blog!

J.M.J.